Diary of a Single Wife

Wow! It has been years since I last wrote a blog. I do feel a bit nervous about blogging again because:

1. I don’t know how consistent I will be, given my demanding life

2. I don’t even know if people still read blogs

3. I’m not sure if God is leading me to do this

But this week, I just felt like I wanted to share my journey to wifehood after years of sharing about being a single woman. My hope is that someone will be blessed by my transparency and openness on this journey.

As a great speaker, I could have just done a YouTube video or a podcast, but there’s something about writing that gives me a next-level freedom. So, again, I don’t know how often I’ll be blogging, but I hope with all my heart that you, whoever is reading this—will be blessed.

Just a Quick Backstory

I got baptized in 2009. I don’t think I really understood what it meant to truly be a Christian, but I knew I wanted to love Jesus. I invited Him into my heart, and I was on a new journey of becoming a better person.

Looking back, I wish I could say I did everything “the Christian way,” but nope… I struggled with fornication, partying, lying, lewdness, and I could barely consider myself a godly woman since I had a boyfriend, was sexually active, and partied every weekend. I never stopped going to church, so I didn’t feel backslidden, but I definitely wasn’t surrendered.

In 2011, I got pregnant and gave birth to my biggest blessing, Christelle Garriques. While there were many shameful moments of being a Christian girl who got pregnant in church, I can honestly say she is the best part of my life and I am so grateful for God’s grace and mercy.

I have written books, shared on podcasts, and even written many blogs about my re-dedication journey, so I won’t go into that again.

You can listen to a podcast where I share my story HERE

From Promiscuous Girl to Purpose-Driven Woman

Since my true surrender on January 1, 2014, my journey has been nothing short of amazing. When I first re-dedicated my life to God, marriage wasn’t a desire for me. I mean, I knew eventually I would want to marry because I wanted to honor God in that area, but I needed to spend time pursuing my purpose and becoming a woman who could truly steward the calling of being a wife.

Fast Forward
I have so much to share about my single journey—man, did I mess up so many times!

I stopped believing God at points, thought He told me who my husband was, experienced the ultimate shame when the guy married someone else, fell sexually when I thought I was seasoned in my purity journey and entertained “random men,” including unbelievers—basically everything you shouldn’t do while trusting God.

But here we are, February 2026: I am courting a wonderful man of God whom I believe God kept for me. Not because either of us is perfect, but because we have both now decided to put God first in our lives and our relationship while trusting His plans for marriage.

I am excited, nervous and curious about this journey to becoming a wife. I believe documenting this journey will bless me first—and I hope it will bless someone else too.

The Single Wife

I called this entry Diary of a Single Wife because for years, I wrote about Diary of a Single Woman (I even wrote a book and didn’t publish it).

After much wife mentorship, I am walking in the revelation that I am a “wife” before I even get married. I am learning that being a wife is about embodying the qualities God desires in a partner now, in preparation for the life He has for me. As Proverbs 18:22 says, “He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord.”

This identity shift—from simply being a single woman to embracing my identity as a single wife has been powerful in my preparation season and now even in my courtship, God’s way.

As I end this first entry, I am looking forward to sharing the next posts: how I met my boyfriend, how I navigated waiting, how I have been preparing for my new season as a married woman, and dating God’s way tips.

I have so much to share—let’s see how this goes.

For now, I’ll leave you with this: TRUST GOD!! HIS TIMING IS PERFECT!!

I love youand God loves you more.

See you soon!!

Crystal